I miss my dad. I cannot explain how excited I am to go and see him this weekend. I want to see what progress he has made, I want to spend time holding his hand, watching TV with him, telling him about what I have been up to. It has been so hard to be away from him. It is difficult to explain what it is like not being there, with my eyes not on him to see for myself what it is that the nurses are reporting over the phone. It is also difficult to think that while I am up and about, going about my daily routine, my father has been confined to an ICU bed for over a month now. I think about him all throughout the day. My mind continually wanders back to how he is doing and what he is up to at the moment. I find it strange, yet probably understandable, that as I sit with my clients, I can relate anything they are speaking about back to my father. He is just always in my thoughts and he saturates everything I think, feel and do. I love him so much and want him to know how much I need him in my life. I have always admired his quiet wisdom and how uncomplicated he tried to live. I am definitely trying to incorporate these teachings in my daily life because I certainly need to keep things simple right now. When everything else feels so complex, I think about the love I have for my father and I smile, because it is so innocent and pure.
Love you dad,
Tracy